Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

You are very welcome Tristan and I thank you as well for your kind words.

I have had a few days of nothing but thinking going on, trying to weed out some things that aren't working, incorporating some new things...

I don't have the contact that I kinda wish I did from H however I am now ok with that...

The more I pull back the more he texts me out of the blue for asinine reasons, which in turn gives me a chance to put into practice all that I have learned here...

I am working on finding a place to live for the boys and I

They need the stability and I need space away from my family.

I am thankful for them however they can be very overbearing at times...

I have found myself turning to the bottle (very odd since I don't normally drink) more often then not so I have to rectify that as well...

I have realized that I am trying to do everything all at the same time...

My baby steps have turned into leaps and that isn't working because I feel overwhelmed most of the time so I am trying to go back to one step at a time...

Just trying to learn how to breathe again without gasping for air