Am I at this stage?

[Lll54]

Trent, kind of embarrassing but I didn't really get the quote till you put in in better terms for me...hehe...so thanks. But now it makes sense. I realize I have no control over my H, and the more I set up these goals in my mind, and the more that my H doesn't meet them, the more I will feel beaten down. So thanks. Its almost like I know all this stuff, I get everything, everything makes complete sense to me, but its actually putting it into action and really doing it is the hard part right now. The detaching thing for example. I understand it, I know how to do it, its just actually doing it that I can't come to terms with. So frustrating! That is true though, he did have sex with me and did blow me off for a day because I didn't fit into his plan that day, but then the following day when he was "bored" I fit in again, so he invited me to hockey. Now its been two days again, and I haven't heard from him. Ugh. No more! I can't wait to tell him this is not the way things are going to be. Just the sexual part I'm talking about. But then again, maybe it was a one time thing and he will not be expecting anymore. Maybe I just gave him his fix.! Its been 4 or 5 days and he hasn't mentioned a word, so for all I know he used me. It was just hard to understand at the time cause of the two hour talk we had a bout the future before it happened. And the cuddling and non-sexual intimacy we shared before "it" happened. Oh well. I can't sit and wonder what his reasons were and what he's thinking. I've got to GAL!