GIMA, don't really have anything to add, just that you're one of the strongest DBers I know around here. Maybe dropping the rope for now would be a good idea (believe me it's easily picked right back up sometimes even when we don't want to). When I was going through the early part of this it was like I lost half of my brain cells (and I need them all!). Things will (do)get better!!! ((((((((GIMA))))))))
Thank you karen.
I am in a strange, different place than I was before last Thursday (when I had the "Nothing Has Changed" talk with W). I am ok with the worst case scenario, and I know I AM already dead. And, I'm ok with that.
Right now, I am 99% towards dropping the rope. But I want to make sure I don't do it out of anger, hurt, disappointment. It has to be by ME, FOR ME and MY betterment.
I know it will be painful, but I can handle it. Just trying to sort through my emotions while maintaining loving detachment for W. And, well, that's HARD. Not impossible, but HARD.
Ball is in W's court on whether she will go to MC/Retro. I've said my piece and could not have been clearer. I needed to get a few things off my chest on Sunday evening.
