Why am I up so early? W and S just left for the highway. Before he got in the car, he came and gave me a big hug. W kept her distance. It's weird. This is the first time in years that one of us were leaving that we didn't hug and kiss good bye. Well, all things considered I guess that's not all that bad.
Wait......
Well, the door came back up. I guess I was hoping W was coming in for that hug and kiss. Nah. She came in for her back thingy. I don't know if that was a second chance for me to take the lead on this or not. Strange enough, I felt neutral about her leaving. Now, I feel sad and am missing her as I hear her leave the sub division. I know she hates it, but I asked her the exact time she's going to hit the open road. I guess it's the pilot in me but it helps me with my estimates of her posistion. I know it's late fall but I can still keep an eye on the weather along her route and dial her up if I see anything heavy.
I asked her to check in every once and awhile. She replied with a low ok but a loud my phone will be on. I think may ring that thing up a lot. One of the things that convinced her I didn't care was "I" didn't check in with her much on her last road trip south.
This was a major thing for her she told me a in August. She said by not keeping her updated on weather and just seeing if she was ok on a more frequent basis, it told her I lost feeling for her. In the past, I would call her on the dime if I severe weather was coming(she's scared of thunder storms). Over the past year, my tracking of the weather was put on the back burner for some reason. Then again, a lot of things I liked to do were put back there. I guess it was the depression. Now that I'm coming back, I'm back to doing things I like. Oh well. I miss the W already but I'm going to have a good time cooking and making a mess of my brother's place today.
