Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I don't know if I need to have a conversation with her and lay things out or just keep moving away from her.

She was back to distant and doing her own thing yesterday. It's almost clinical between us sometimes. When we kissed the day before last, it felt good and it was obvious there is still something there, but it's definitely not what it was. (I don't expect it to be either). I don't know that I want to fight for it anymore though. I want someone who WANTS me. Not this. Not someone who is up and down. Not someone who would leave and break up our family. Not someone who would treat me the way that she has treated me.

I keep having the internal monologue of what a R conversation would sound like. Would I tell her I need more? Would I just ask her when she is moving? Would I just ask her to go? Would I just tell her that I am done? I'm not sure.

Would I expect this to shock her into staying? Not really.
Would I be sad to see her go? Sure, but it may be necessary.
Am I realy to move on with my life? That's a tough one. It may be better than what it is now though.

At this point, I will continue to move on without saying anything. It's been months since she said she was moving. Weeks since I've heard anything about it. It's just hanging there.

Any advice on having the talk or just moving on without saying anything would be appreciated.