Moving on with my life!

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I am trying to make visits as pleasant as possible hoping that he won't get too frustrated about not being able to take her. Longshot I know, but worth a try.

Yesterday he stayed almost 2 hours! We spent time with baby together as we were outside and then she wanted me at least in the room most of the time. Another one of those visits that tug on my heart strings and make me want to yell "WHY?". He wants to spend Halloween with us. What to do?

He knew we were going to a MNF party after he left. During the game, he sent a few texts saying how fun it was with her. I am sure he felt the heartstrings too (or maybe not) but probably wanted to keep his foot in the door.

I feel proud of myself right now. I am walking in life with no regrets on how I am living it. I am doing the best I can with the hand that I have been dealt. God and my children come first before anyone or anything. Not out looking for a man and for the first time I am at peace with being alone. Not really fun all the time but I am feeling better about it. Baby didn't ask for this messed up life and I won't complicate it any further.

Music class today!!!