Believe me, I haven't ignored anything. I have listened to every word.
I have only recently just climbed out of this fog of disbelief that this is even happening. Yesterday, I placed a call to a lawyer to learn exactly what my rights are in regards to the kids. I want to have all the bases covered. I have made calls to the school to see what is involved in enrolling homeschooled kids, I have talked to my relatives about making sure someone is available to pick them up until I get home from work. So I have things in motion, as soon as I am ready, I will set the boundary.
I am not afraid of my wife, I have been afraid of LOSING my wife. Yes, I realize now after finding this site that all the efforts I have made prior to this point have given her more reason to leave. Somewhere I read where car salesmen never sell cars by begging and pleading for one to buy it. I have been a fool and have been used and that realization is setting in. I am now starting to think about how much better off me and my kids would be without her. That in and of itself is enlightening.
This site has been a lifesaver for me, it has helped me get some priorities back in order. I don't have a large support group, mainly only a couple of people, both of whome live out of state so I have been mostly alone during this process. I have gone through stages of real deep, dark depression and have almost let this consume me. I am normally not a weak-minded person, quite the opposite, but this has shaken me to the core. I was not prepared for this. After nearly 15 years of seemingly marital bliss, this hit like a torpedo from no where. So now the light is finally coming on, I can see where I need to go and what I need to do. Doing things proactively for myself is helping me see a lot clearer.
You guys give great advice and again I am not ignoring any of it. Please keep it coming.
