and what is with the taking advantage of your plastered wife. did she say 'no' and you continued?
NO, I did not take advantage of her. She was a willing participant. The final straw was the time I did take advantage of her in a weak state. I would never do that again!
i quess i am confused by this, you "did not take advantage of her" but you "did take advantage of her in a weak state?"
What is it? I am assuming she still holds this against you.
I think we are confusing 2 different occurences.
Yes, months ago there was a terrible incident that I explained earlier. And yes, that was the final act that made my wife decide to leave. She always felt that I "used" her and didn't respect her rights as a person. She is right.
But..I was referring to the time about a week ago, when we had sex while under the influence of marijuana. I certainly instigated it, but she did become an active participant. Still...this made her more angry when she could think clearly, the next day. She feels I waited until she was weak and used that moment to fill my needs.
I know it's my fault that our marriage is over. We had problems like anyone else, but all of those could have been dealt with. My wife is leaving because of my actions. The guilt is really tough to live with. It's also tough now that I clearly see what kind of person I was/am.
My only hope is that professional help with start me on the road to being a better man.
