It’s been a while since I’ve posted although I have been on these boards everyday following one or two situations. A lot has happened since I last posted but I haven’t felt the need to come on here and tell all as I haven’t been actively been dbing or anything like that. If I were to summerise in a few of words where W and I were I would say “back to square one”.
For the last month or so W and I haven’t really been on good speaking terms , she took offence to something I said and things have been bad since then.
W main focus at the moment is FIL, he is being moved onto a new course of radiotherapy, details of which I don’t know as W refuses to discuss FIL condition with me because of the comment I made before. She said she wouldn’t discuss it with me and is sticking to her word.
Added to this W has a new situation to deal with, this situation was also one of my nightmare prediction of the future. "From MLC straight into the menopause".
W has been dealing with severe abdominal pains and other symptoms which she’s not been telling me about. At the weekend she phoned me from a drop in clinic but wouldn’t tell me over the phone why she was there. When she got home she told me that her abdominal pain had been diagnosed as enlarged fibroids in her womb. The doctors were going to treat them with a course of injections, one of the side effects is that it will likely bring on the change for her. If the injections don’t work then the next step would be to remove the large fibroid but as they are numerous smaller ones doctor are most likely to perform a hysterectermy. W is a bit depressed about this, yesterday I tried to make conversation about how she was feeling and offer sympathy, but she snapped at me that she didn’t want to discuss it. (although she did apologise later).
My situation is marginally better, I’ve put back on the weight I lost over the last few years and more, but visually you would just say I’ve put on a few pounds around the waist as I have still been doing the gym 2 – 3 times per week.
My ECG check showed all was ok, but the excess alcohol was probably out of my system by then so I know now that I need to kick that habit. The other habit I need to kick is the late night raids on the fridge for a comfort snack this is the source of my weight gain.
So I’m back in the gym every night working to get back in shape, W and I are slowly communication, but if I look at it, we have old cycles, old routines going on, if W doesn’t want to talk we don’t talk. When she comes round things get better. I used to think I was the problem but now I am convinced that I’m not.
Lanzo
PS: K, I do try to talk to W but if she gets into a mood there is no conversation be had.
