Hi JR, I think you're much further along than you realize - you've really accomplished so much over this last year - and just thinking of how far you've come should give you a lot to be proud of - the man you are is someone who can bestow so much to his children - they have an opportunity to see the power of both strength and vulnerability - and the gift of determination. There are many things that your children see in you that they might not know how to describe or articulate yet - but your virtues are becoming part of them - and that's honorable and good.
I still struggle a lot through my days...I haven't posted much recently because I've just been going through my own dark places - and just haven't had the energy (emotionally or physically) to write much...one of the few things that I've gathered from these last couple weeks of terrible sadness that I've been through (mostly from missing my older son, who is so far away) - is that I can only push through and overcome my situation if I accept it - and get myself to the mindset not just of letting go, but also of letting be...but this perspective is just another step for me on what I know to be a long, continuous journey toward personal growth.
I hope you get some resolution about the holidays soon - such a delicate issue...I'm working on the same thing myself.
