HP. You and Corri are right. After a good nights sleep. The first in a long time, I analyzed the happenings from yesterday. Let me run my conclusions past you guys. I forgot a tid bit that she said yesterday. She said that NOW when she's not at work, she comes home and watches tv with me. She then added that she feels I'm trying to avoid her. My theory. She was saying, hey, I dropped an olive twig in here and you don't get it. I'm coming home earlier for a reason and you don't take advantage of it. I thought you were putting me on. I also believe what you said about the feet deal. When she told me I thought her hooters were ugly and that's the reason I didn't touch them, I told her I'm a leg and foot man. Analysis of recent leads me to this conclusion. Due to her walking at her job, she has a thingy on her foot. She complains about it hurting. Last week . she threw it up right in my face to see. Less than 6 inches away. This was a test. I was supposed to do something with it. On Sunday, she kicked it up there again for me to see it while I was in the bed. If this opp comes up again, I will take it. If I get that foot to the face so be it. In addition to what you say she was thinking, I can hear her thinking I put it right there and he did nothing. He doesn't like my hooters. I knew it. Liar. I'll just act on impulse and see where it goes.
I may try a letter. She knows as a release, I sometimes write porn stories. Maybe I'll let her read one with her in it. I guess I'll just do it.
I did my best to stay upbeat last night. But her crying broke my heart and I teared up. The broke the keep you sunny side up. I do think my modified LRT, getting a life and doing things has her thinking and curious. She sees I'm going about my life with or without her.
Jiji. I think now she is beginning to realize a D isn't the sunny paradise she thinks it will be. Last night, she asked me do I think she wants to have to two jobs most every day of the week and still not have anything. She didn't mention the toll on the kids but she knows that too. I think in a way she's falling out of love with the idea but slowly. She finally admitted to a certain point that her friends are not pro divorce. She said her friend "talk like you do about going to counseling." I wanted to say it's a phone call away.
In a way, I am painting a picture of staying together. I remind her that working as a real team, we could be further along than we are. She may have taken that as an insults. I'll find a better way of showing her the grass is really greener on this side of the fence.
