Not wanting to be on this boat........

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so we had a MC session tonight the wife could not make it b/c her company announced a huge layoff at lunchtime so she had to stick around for that. I decided to go anyways as the session was already paid for and I figured that an "extra" session could not hurt.
Well--apparantley the wife thinks that I am just trying to get the counselor on my side and she was upset. I was also told that she has tried to make herself love me again but that I make her disgusted now??!! However, she again has said that i can file for divorce and than I would be the one breaking up the family?
She is so all over the board in her rants/complaints that I do not even know what to say or where to start?? I have a sense that this layoff at work could work in favor of the marriage b/c the prime suspect of any PA or at the least an EA was her former boss turned co-worker taht was laid off today. Initially she is going to feel real sorry for him and his situation, but maybe that will make this little affair lose some steam? He is also married with a little son.
After reading my whole story on here and thinking about our relationship I am not sure what is going on with her. Obviously she has some hostility/anger issues with me and the relationship. But what else is going on? Does she want to divorce does she want to reconcile? Does she care either way? Very confused.........