Am I at this stage?

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Ya, not on birth control. Should maybe get on that. We don't use condoms, never had. This is the wierd part of my whole sitch. I'm not on birth control because we wanted another baby. So decided that we wouldn't actively "try" but if it happened it happened. We weren't going to actually plan it, just let it happen. So ya how the heck can you be at that stage in your life one day, and then separated the next? Issues, issues, issues. That's all I have to say about him right now. I haven't actually set boundaries cause we have only spoken once since the whole episode and we were having some family time it wasn't really the time or place. But also for those of you that don't know my H, the main reason for our split is because he feels so much pressure in our marriage. He is a people pleaser and in return feels pressure and the need to please me all the time. I have learned to release that pressure off of him, and give him a more carefree, enjoyable environment when he is around me. Talking to him about sexual boundaries and not getting anything from me until he is home would just piss him off, and put that added pressure on him from me to come home. And I don't want to do that. I would rather just stay away and keep my distance. That "talk" would push him away... I know it.