Quote: Hi Blackie Hope you are still OK. I think you are doing well.
Quote: My cuz told me to chill out. In his words, "she is to confused now that things are in motions. She still wants to be with you but doesn't know how to do it." I hope that 's true. I can help guide her. If it's a pride thing, I'll eat the crap to save things. She does have a pride streak.
That is really sweet. Pride can get in the way. I think it is right that you need a way out for her that is not just backing down. She may feel she made a serious decision and to go back on it would be sort of fickle. I'm not sure exactly what would work for her. At least she needs to know everything will be different in future and I expect that is what you want too. But don't rush anything as your cuz says chill and give her some space to think things thru.
Hey Jiji. I hope the cuz is right. Or at least that's how I feel now. This has been a strange 24 hours I think. W was gone all of yesterday with a friend to go to craft shows. No biggie. Her brother came to town and crashed here. He was here to drop off his son with the kid's mom who left him. I don't know the true story. I suspect he has the same problem she has in telling the complete story. Anyway, the W was telling me how bad it was for a family to split up like that. I just sat there and thought what the he!! are you doing. But I didn't. This morining, the W asked me if I was served yet. Her lawyer had already mailed her copy of the paper. She said she looked at it and in a low tone said this was so technical. I read it and did my best to stay bright. No real reaction. She did show me another piece of mail. A renewal type thing. She asked what I would do. I told her I guess I'll create my own account. She said there was no reason for me to do that. I told her there was a relationship issue there. If we aren't together, it wouldn't work. She looked at me and just said oh with a funny look on her face.
We went to breakfast with her bro and parents. I usually don't go with her to these things. She surprised me by asking me if I wanted to go. There was a little tension. Her dad really didn't have much to say to me at the table. Her mom did and mentioned we had spoken the night before. I notice the W kept looking across the table at me. The talk turned to the reason her brother was here. He had mentioned his woman's family had said they would disown her if she left him. There was a lot of talk of how silly she was for leaving and such. I just stayed out of it but I saw it going into the W's head.
We left and headed out own directions. After the W was out of the lot, her dad opened up and started talking as he always has. I think they don't want to appear to be taking my side over hers although they seem to be.
I don't know where her head is right now. When she came back in last night, I was half sleep and a little cranky so I really didn't talk to her. She kept trying to make conversation. I later went out for a beer or two. This morning, she was with the 20 questions what was wrong with me last night, it seemed like I was upset and such. She may have thought my cranky attitude was because of the papers.
She is acting as if nothing is going on. She's making her jokes and being nicer to me than she has in the past couple months. I wish I knew what the heck she was thinking right now. I do know the reality of this has set in. We'll see what it does to her.
