I've been thinking about you.. all the trials, travails and time that's passed.
I know all I've wanted is your happiness, a joyful life of balance and healthy relationships. It's when you find your stride and decide that folks can rally around and be your cheerleaders. Only through momentum does change occur.
You're not crazy if you know what you want, what you're willing to do. At some point though you have to let go of the strings of emotional support if they keep you from turning to your spouse as your confidante. But that only happens when you trust. And at some point trust involves a leap of faith.
The change in the way he kissed you, turned to you seems to have given you the glimmer of what you were hoping to see. Keep supporting what is right for you, what brings the best for you and your spouse.
If it's right, it's right. If it's not you both know you gave all you could in the purest sense.
BUT..
He needs to give you all of him... as you need to do the same.. if you can, if he can.. if you both trust the one another above all others.
