What to do, what to do?

[LuLu]

Ughhh. I need a 2x4. Bad couple of days that I'm trying to redeem myself from.

We had family day at the fair on Sunday. The ride there was not so good. Something came up, oh yeah, stepdad and mom talk about how they don't want to be around H. It was a little weird, probably said too much. At one point, H said in a not so positive way, "So, what? You want me to move back in?" I guess it was his tone because I knew this was a lose lose question, I replied no, not yet and that we would need some marriage counseling and IC. I told him that I couldn't do OW#3.

H: I can't go back to how it was. I'm afraid if we do, that we will fight like we were
M: Things got hard quick for us, we went from 0 to 2 kids quick and it was a huge adjustment for us (we adopted a 2 yr old when I was 28 weeks pregnant)
H: Don't blame this on the kids. It's not about them.
M: Our problems weren't any worse than other people with small children. We weren't dealing with any other major issues we were just going through a tough time adjusting to parenthood/marriage. Why didn't you just sit me down and tell me how bad you felt. Or how about marriage counseling or telling me look, I'm not happy and I'm going to divorce you if we don't fix this.
H: There was no talking to you.
M: So it was easier to take it to a third person?
H: W, there was no telling you otherwise.
M: You didn't try. So you're saying if I screwed somebody else it would have been okay?
H: No.
H: You weren't nice to me
M: I will accept half of the problems with the marriage. Yes. The affair is yours and you need to take responsibility for it.


Ummm, check please!! DB'ing done! haha. I told you it was bad.

Later on that day, conversation comes up that H thinks I'm dating. I didn't deny it. I'm not dating at all, not even a little. He says that changes everything! I say, dating has a pretty wide definition. I know this was bad but he pissed me off!

Today, my mom asks if she can keep the girls overnight some time. I mention this to H and ask him if he wants to go to the comedy club that night.

What the hell is wrong with me?