Yes I am. I've actually found a lot of peace. The counseling didn't do as much as praying and turning everything over to God and realizing I had no control over my behaviors and actions. Also realizing I'm not a bad person, bad behaviors yes, and you can change behaviors. I've realized you can't control other people by what you say or do and their path to salvation is theirs and I can't control that. Letting it go.
I don't know whats best for everyone. I can't keep myself safe through control. Anger hurts the person 10 times more that is angry than the person I'm acting upon. I love myself and only now can I love others. i've cried almost everyday since April it is cathartic.
My 10 year old has even told some of her friends parents how much I've changed and she can't believe it.
Healing I've done so much. The hurt I've caused others I've apologized and tried to make amends. I pray that everyone I've hurt heals. I hope everyoone gives thanks for what they have. I'm glad I didn't live like this my entire Life and I can and will change. I hope my wife heals. Married to her or not I hope she heals.
H:37 W:34 D11,S8,S6 Together 19 years M:10 Bomb:4/09
