So just feeling a little frustrated today. Nothing major to report. H was supposed to see S yesterday, he just said he was sleeping and I didn't hear anything back from him until finally later that night, he texts me a picture of our S when he was a baby, saying "He's growing too fast!" I had all these questions, like why didn't you come see S today, but I just simply responded "yes. too fast." I then just told him about all the amazing things S did that day. I feel like shouting at him to get his act together and he can be with the S "he misses so much" everyday! I almost feel pity for him for all the wonderful things that he is missing S doing.
Overall though, he's just so confusing. I never know where we stand (& I know that if I ask him, it will just backfire). It seems like one moment, we're sending racy text messages back and forth and then the next, he's completely MIA. (It's been going on for awhile like this). I mean, it's great that he is still physically attracted to me, but I want the emotional connection too. I feel like I have been giving it time, but nothing's happening!
But it was nice to have H around that night. It seems to make me worse off though, to have that great time together and then that's the end of it. It just makes me feel so sad. Hopefully, like you said 'awest', he realizes that he was comfortable there with us and will want more of that. Bummed out though because I suggested some things we could do this week (ie. pumpkin carving with S), but he didn't seem too into it. I don't know if he's planning on seeing S for halloweeen or not and I don't want to ask. It would involve taking off work (which he rarely does), so that would be a good step in making S a priority. So let's just see what this week holds...
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
