Funny all the other times I thought I was detached, I would find myself thinking, "What could I do to show Dan that I have let go"....
But lately, I don't want to show him anything. At all. Maybe that is the point of actual detachment? I don't have to prove anything to him, because it really doesn't matter so much. Kind of want to live and let live, you do your thing, I'll do mine.
He had to go to Wichita today until tomorrow night. Funny it didn't occur to me until just as I typed this that K.C. is on the way to Wichita...and I really could care less! Anyway he got back yesterday, left again this morning, gets back Tuesday night and then leaves again Sunday. I feel bad for the kids but it doesn't bother me personally...
Home with Nathan today. His temp is better, 100.8. He still doesn't want to eat anything which is a problem but at least he is drinking! Dan called to check on him and I was short on words I guess (just the facts) and he sounded a little annoyed.
Said something about when we would carve pumpkins. I told him he was the carving expert, he could do it Wednesday. He pointed out that WE couldn't do it Wednesday b/c I had night class. I told him he could handle it without me...again he sounded a little irritated. Oh well, not my problem. I want to be there for trick or treating but I really don't mind missing out on carving pumpkins. I took them to pick them out so I had my fun!
OK off to finish cleaning. Doing my best to clean all surfaces in the house today, change the sheets, etc etc. Probably too late as I am developing a cough
