It's the things I didn't get. I didn't get the "I hate you's", I didn't get the "I don't love you anymore". She can't say it. She can't hide that supressed version of herself whom was the person I put on the highest pedastil possible. And that person won't lie to me like that. So there's still something in there.
Yeah, probably way deep down she's partly who you married. But she also is the person she's become now too. I mean that's just as much a part of her too.
The point that there's the supressed former of herself and the person she has become I get, and is not the the thing that still bothers me and is sitll the only answer offred up even by WAW's when I've asked before. The question is why hasn't she followed that part of script as almost everyone else? Why does she not blame me solely? Why doesn't she hate me? Why does she still love me? And won't she let it go?
And just to say cake eating, still doesn't cut it. I think there'a a serious identity crisis in there somewhere what it is. I just don't want to turn my back, not just yet, call me stupid, I don't care. I don't want to be the one of us to make that decision that finally makes it 'too late'. I don't think I could live with myself.
Yes I deserve better, and I deserve happiness, I know.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
