I haven't clue in the world what she wants. I think I have an idea. She's trying like heck to want to believe in our R and stay. But she can't right now. Some of that is me and my back slides. I can only hope she comes around but we'll see. She SAID she wouldn't listen to those who say I'm abusive and such. That's hooey. I'm glad she at least spoke up for me in this regard. Those people only know what she tells them and that's it.
I haven't heard from her today. I'm a little surprised but that's life. I went to lunch with a couple ladies here and bumped into a mutual friend. My W will be getting a report soon. I think I will put my ring back on. I feel naked without it and some of these chicks are starting to move on me. I don't want that and I'm not ready for it either.
On a good note, our email server was down most the day. When it came up, there was an email sitting there from last night. It seems "the girl" creeped on to my pc at home and sent a message. It was one of those animated greeting. All it said was to "big boy" (she calls me that our my first name and dad to her buds). I LOVE YOU and her name. It brought tears to my eyes immediately. I had to print it an put in my cubicle. I was told don't listen to mommy. Don't believe anything they say......
That made my day and I tearing up as I type. I will stay up and see what the W will do tonight. Last night when we were talking, we were sitting close, almost holding but neither of us made a move to hold the other. I don't know if I should have.
I'll have to study on the dark move. I was thinking of going to a hotel for a few days this weekend and next. It's close by work and home and I can walk around with my underwear on.
