Cutterbug - thanks. I know I need to stop what I have been doing - it's only pushing my wife out the door faster. My major backpedalling pushed the move out date up 6 months.
I am trying to find something in me, to allow me to worthy of honor and respect. I am thinking I need professional help to do so. I really will try the rubber band idea.
If I am totally honest with myself, I still want to save this marriage. But, at the same time I think it's impossible and it's best for me to put my efforts into ending it well. I have never felt so "wishy-washy" and lost before. I know I need to man up and change that and stop feeling sorry for myself.
