Right now, lock your gun up and give it to a friend that you trust. The last thing that you need is to be carrying when emotions are so high and life s*cks the big one. You already acknowledge that you lost your cool verbally. Sometimes you lose control completely and that is what I am afraid of.
Baby, please, do this right now. Tell your friend when you give them your piece that no matter what you say or do that they cannot give it back to you.
Losing her is not worth losing your freedom or your life, even though it feels like it could be right now. Guns kill and even though you are a big target fan, give it up and do not go to the shooting range for awhile. You might think that a bit of target practice will make you feel better but it might just make things worse.
Please lock up your gun right now for your safety and the safety of your family. I've had a gun forced into my mouth and my kids almost lost me. You have to maintain your cool and get rid of this temptation right now.
Let us know what happens, I know that life is really black for you right now but we want to help you through this. Since she called the cops once she will do it again. I would too if I knew that you were carrying or had a piece available. This is not worth going to jail, and definately not worth taking the chance of harming anyone.
Johanna
I took you advice before you even gave it. I just came from an associates home and stashed them there for awhile. She's a local Sheriff's deputy so I know they will be safe with her.
This is spiraling out of control. I called to get a copy of the report for my files. I don't know how it was reported but I think she reported it as a domestic situation. My mother and several other people told me she would try to do this. Make me seem crazy or what not. She knows even if she files for divorce, I can't be made to leave until the thing is final. The only way she can do that is to claim some type of abuse. I think that might be where she's trying to go with this. She is not the same person she was even 2 weeks ago. She's heading to uncharted lands right now and I'm not sure if I want to follow her there. I would like to stay a family and help her through whatever it is but right now, I'm not sure I have the energy.
I fear she's turning the kids against me. I told her something one of the kids said. She said she would rather live with me. Well I'm sure mom put the spot light on her and she denied it. Mom thinks I'm trying to turn the guys against her. She said THEY want me to leave too. She said I'm confusing them.
I may loose it all. I can't demand visitation for them. I don't know if she will let me even see them now. She's no doubt is out spreading the bad word about me to all who will listen. I don't care what her jive friends say, but I don't need the rep of a creep. I've never had that rep and I don't want it now.
The house is empty right now, I don't know where they went. I think I will leave myself and find something to do. Maybe I'll shoot some pool or go watch the planes take off and land. It's dark there, no one will see me crying.
