If your going to step away from this marriage and your children. Do it with honour and respect. They will be in your life for all your days. You have a woman who is hurting and will need your support through out her life. As a husband or as a friend. Right now you cannot see that.
You have a daughter and son who need a father.
Stop.
Your hurting, your wife is hurting and your children are hurting. You can continue to add to this. Or you can take some actions.
Stop adding to the hurt.
That is an action. Try it for one hour. No spiteful thoughts. No negative thoughts. One Hour. Then find the thickest rubberband you have in the house. Every time you think negative thoughts pull that puppy as far as possible and let it go.
You will hurt yourself instead.
Continue to do this.
And think each time.
STOP. I WILL STOP. I WILL STOP. I WILL STOP.
ONCE YOU HAVE DONE THAT.
STOP.
Your 40 years old. Either you going to learn something here or you are going to have a ton of bitterness in your life. That is your choice. You have strangers here who are willing to take time out of their lifes to give you some support. BUT you do not listen. Nor do you understand to make a choice.
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