Right now, lock your gun up and give it to a friend that you trust. The last thing that you need is to be carrying when emotions are so high and life s*cks the big one. You already acknowledge that you lost your cool verbally. Sometimes you lose control completely and that is what I am afraid of.
Baby, please, do this right now. Tell your friend when you give them your piece that no matter what you say or do that they cannot give it back to you.
Losing her is not worth losing your freedom or your life, even though it feels like it could be right now. Guns kill and even though you are a big target fan, give it up and do not go to the shooting range for awhile. You might think that a bit of target practice will make you feel better but it might just make things worse.
Please lock up your gun right now for your safety and the safety of your family. I've had a gun forced into my mouth and my kids almost lost me. You have to maintain your cool and get rid of this temptation right now.
Let us know what happens, I know that life is really black for you right now but we want to help you through this. Since she called the cops once she will do it again. I would too if I knew that you were carrying or had a piece available. This is not worth going to jail, and definately not worth taking the chance of harming anyone.
