I know none of this is my problem but it does cause anxiety to my children so I don't feel I can walk away from it. I've had no correspondence with him at all personally.
D19 tried to talk D14 out of going to the wedding last night. As you know she lives away so did this by phone. Even though D14 was sat in another room I could hear what she was saying. She kept telling D19 that it was ok for her she no longer lives at home and doesn't have to deal with this on a daily basis. I also heard her say 'look D19 if I want to take the easy option and do what dad asks of me I will.' they argued for a while and eventually D14 hung up the phone. I made no mention of it not even the fact that I had overheard. I was really hurt by some of what she said but I know deep down that this is just her attempt to retain some recognition from her father. Those of you who weren't reading my threads in the early days won't know that when XH left she was 10. Two weeks in he told her he had wanted to leave for 10yrs. Astute little girl that she was/is she has been left thinking ever since that it was her fault that he left. He can't/won't see that though.
I'm alright today just reeling from the latest spin on the rollercoaster. I dread to think what's going to happen the day the baby is born. I feel so sorry for the poor little thing being born into all of this. On the other hand I can't help but resent her.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
