I really do hear what you are saying. Really. And I have always appreciated you being so blunt with me. But, there are times when I just can't do the things I should. Yes, I am weak. But I can admit it and know I need to be stronger.
Like, E-train I am feeling some relief that soon this will all end. In some ways, I look forward to the day it really is over. Physical separation will change things - hopefully for the better.
I want this vacation for us. I know it may not be the right thing. But it's not entirley wrong either. Please believe me when I say, I am not doing it to make her or the kids like me. I know it isn't going to change the future. We have talked with our kids, and they understand everything and they still want that last "hurrah". We all know what will happen days later, but we all agree on going. Right or wrong thing to do, I will not change my mind on this.
I just told my close co-workers about the divorce and that was a step towards moving on. These are tough, tough days, but I will survive and one day be a better man for my tribulations.
Fine, do what makes you feel better, I tried indy, I really did, some people are just prone to seeking out failure because they're not really used to feeling what success is - they're afraid to do something different and you have to hit rock bottom until you really know what direction up is. IMHO, including your co-workers in your personal life probably wasn't the greatest thing to do either: work life & personal life, keep them separate.
