Thanks jiji. See my problem. The points I like in my horoscope are
Quote: The person you've been up to this point is going to be forever changed by what's going on today and you couldn't be more anxious to see the results.
I know I'm changing and I hope something happens today that will open her eyes to this. She was talking about getting a friend from the 2nd job to fix things around the house that are beyond my skills. She said she would have him do it after the 1st of the year. At least she didn't add her usual after you leave. I don't know if that's an oversight or not.
Quote: You are open to any and all new ideas and the solid opinions you've had for so long are suddenly very malleable. Of course, you have to be careful about who you let have an influence over you, but if you're spending time with the right kinds of people
I think I'm in good company here. I like the advice from the ladies who are/were in this position. I woke up this morning feeling the power moving. In a good way. The last time I felt it moving against me was a week before I lost my job. I'm hopeful that God will send that right person to open her ear up.
Point taken on not telling her what I wrote. I think when the chance comes, I will just walk the walk. I think this is a good mission statement but it can be improved. I was hoping for a little one on one time today but the kids kept bouncing around. She was very nice, her tone was pre 8-15-03. She seemed to be in a good mood when she left for work. Over the past few weeks when I've wished her a good day, her return tone was low. Over the past week, she's speaking up. Maybe she thinks I really mean it. Which do.
I'm trying to make her feel comfortable. Maybe next week I'll ask her to see the Matrix. Last spring, she was mad because I went with my brother. She knows we go to see sci-fi movies on the first run together. I may shake her up and take her first. Just to see what she does.As far as dancing, I can't dance worth a poo. At weddings and events, she always wants me to dance with her but I suck. Bad. Even slow dancing. It's not that I don't like holding my angel but I have a hard time doing stuff I'm not comfortable with. It has come to my attention that she thought I just didn't want to dance with her. That's my fault for not telling her my reasons. In her own words "J------ how many times do I have to tell you to communicate! Communication keeps stuff from happening." Well, I hope my recent actions communicate how I feel about her.
Just looked in mail. Company Christmas party invites are here. She looked at hers and threw it on the counter with a funny reaction. I'm not sure what it was. I think now that she's been pulled out of her world just a little bit, she's starting to remember the good times. At least a little. 10 years ago a company Christmas party was our first date. I wonder if she remembers.
Sory for rambling. More to follow.
P.S. Thanks for the prayer. I like it. It says what I'm thinking. I just hope it's his will that we get together. My heart tells me it is.
