BBJ a latte would be great today. Thanks!! It's rainy and dark.
Ali, I dont PLAN to have sex with him on Tuesday for God's sake!!! Also, having SEX, wouldnt mean necessarily THAT much at this phase we are in. Sorry I am being "cold" about it but making love isnt gonna happen with him. Sex, maybe, not ML.
And spending the weekend with us is NOT that promising, is it? He has been doing that for a year now. What DOES sound promising is that he seems to be WITH me (most of the time) and not day dreaming about his lover or sucked in his lies and guilt as he used to be.
I was talking to John last night and we concluded that I am crazy. We also concluded that I need major reassurance from him. And that I should not be so cruely honest with him either. I told him yesterday that when he leaves the house, I feel safe again. I can relax and be myself. I realised after talking to John, that such phrases will not help him move to the right direction. Probably block him more.
Anyway, life is good cause tomorrow I am taking the day off and work has been getting a little less hectic. K
