As always, good advice guys. I do tend to analyze her actions. Perhaps too much. I like the idea of a lite date. But, this will sound silly, I feel a little nervous asking her to do something. I feel as I felt 10 years ago. What if she says no.

It's possible that she is holding back just to see what happens. I do notice she seems better in the morning if I wait up for her. I will continue that. She called earlier today, nothing much. Just confirming arrangements for the kids. She most likely won't work but will go to a friend's house to help her get ready for her little ones bday party. Plus she said ---- is having a lot of problems and needs someone to talk to. Of course I'm jealous of ----- for cutting into "my time." But what can you do? I like when she does talk to her. This sounds silly but her buddies husband is a true turd. He cheats, he lies and is a bad guy all around. I hope she compares and contrasts. The last time buddy was over, W seemed to be nicer to me for a day.
I'll have to try and squeeze in something this weekend.

HP

For sometime, I had the feelin that she wants to be chased. I haven't because of the book. However, I may try to chase her gently as a co-worker said and see what happens. I wish I could find a way to initiate more physical contact. This morning, she spilled something on her shirt and I pointed to it and kind of traced down I then stopped. Her reaction was hard to gauge. She decided it's time to go to work. But, she was the first to say bye in a louder voice. She usually says bye in a low voice when she's in a good mood, see ya in a low voice when she's in a so-so mood and I'm leaving in a low voice when she's mad. I'm hoping she puts on the girly girl shirt so I can comment and maybe trace the letters.

With regards to your pulling away to protect yourself, she is doing this. But she seems at times to be coming back to me, or letting me come back to her.

In comparing last year to this year. Last year I was just coming off my busy season of travel. But, this was around the time I started sleeping on the couch. Not because I was mad at her, but she snores like a freight train. There was communication but things were starting to get tense. She was trying to reach me. But again, I was in my fog.

I'm hoping she will come home early and help me hand out candy as I asked. I asked gently but she said this was my year to hand out candy plus she was going over to ---- house. Maybe she'll surprise me.

I may have to "splain" something however. We have a Halloween contest. One lady was a domantrix complete with a whip. She came around asking did my W tie me up and so on. Heck I sure wish she did and would but that's another story. Anyway she was snapping that whip and caught me. I have a small whip burn on me. Hmmmmm. Another interesting Blackrook story.

More to follow.

Soon, I'll have to start a new thread. Thanks to you guys, this one is bulking out just fine complete with a lot of advice from 4 corners. I hope others in my place are picking up tips too. From the number of views, I would think so. I guess this may be the reason I'm going through this. Perhaps to help others. I feel a litte good about that but I want my bunch of grapes today. With tear in eye going back to work.