My H came back from a trip bearing gifts. Well, he is not Greek, so I accepted them (beware of Greeks bearing gifts). A perfume set and some chocolates I like. I was not at home when he came in (a 180) and he texted me on some pretext to say he was back. Well, whop dee doo! Roll out the old red carpet, why doncha.
I finally arrive at home three hours later to see him (surprise surprise) getting ready for a night on the town. Tell me something new. I thanked him for the gifts and said I guess I'll see you in the morning. Have fun.
Now hear this, he is still text messaging the mystery woman. He is always out and I can only reach the reachable conclusion which he refuses to confirm. Not that I have asked recently.
I am so sick of this nonsense. What do I have to show as progress in this M after seven months of Dbing? Precious little. Something has to give as I will not tolerate another year of this open disrespect and deceit. I feel like kicking DBing to the curb and just leaving him be. My friends are urging me to stick with it but in my mind I am planning Jan 1 as my Announcement Date, to wit:
Dear H, I am through with you. Have a nice life.
Why bring me these gifts and still continue with his single married life? Is he worth it? The person he used to be is but this uncaring, selfish, inconsiderate, childish, person is not. Why must I deal with a child in an adult's body? A child who refuses to deal with issues but just makes himself as busy as busy can be so that he does not have to face the reality which he says is too painful? And then have another woman added to the mix? Oh, no. I am feeling done and done-er.
But Reality Bites. I am not moving out of my home. He is not moving anywhere. He is happy to live in LimboLand indefinitely. I WILL not. I know the time approaches when I have to DO SOMETHING. But what? I refuse to live a lie and a life of deceit. I deserve better.
It is a new Game Plan (AGAIN) starting now.
Step 1 - Out of the house early in the morning. Don't plan to see him before I leave and I will be back late.
Step 2- New outfit. Check. New heels. Check. New shades. Check. This is my gear for Tuesday.He will see me in it before I leave the house. I will be home late and back out again.
Step 3 - Gym on Wednesday. New gym outfit that will make him cry.
Step 4 - Thursday - TDB
Step 5 - Friday. Start of weekend trip away.
Childish? Maybe. But it will make me feel better in a small little way.
Why would he buy me gifts and still be acting like a fool? What is the purpose of all of this? Anyone? (especially the guys? Puppy? Coach? Dia? Sandi?
