Another day of pullback for me. Have not spoken to W much. Need to watch that I'm not coming across rudely. Feels like I am, if withdrawn is rude.

Will tell W I am taking over bill paying and checking account and finances either tonight or tomorrow - I'm pretty worn out now - wanted to get myself exhausted with my work out this am, and I did.

@Greek, I like the idea about taking kids to a movie tomorrow on my anniversary but S has a football game, so that won't work. I will be very surprised if W even acknowledges the day, much less a card. But, I really don't expect a thing.

So, I am back to LRT just like before. No initiating conversation. He!!, I am not even making eye contact.

The struggle I am in now is where this is all going. I am pretty sure I know where it leads. How ugly to be contemplating a D action when the holidays are just around the corner. Not that there is ever a good time for it.

One day at a time.


Me 43, S11, D7
M13
Bomb 4/20/09
Current