Thanks guys. Johanna the other day when we were heading out, I thought, I used to hold the door open for her and closed it back when. I know that's not romantic but it was just something I did. Let's see, romantic, I would remember most occasions, not the Hallmark Days with some type of present. Big balloon with some type of stuffed creature in it. Back then, we used to get at it anywhere as soon as the kids were sleep. We used to go out of town on trips. I used to take her flying. Most of all, we SPENT TIME TOGETHER. I think I need to think of a few more romantic things and be prepared.
Honey, thanks for pulling for me.
I think my primary change will be to show her I love and care for her just by holding her. She's a hugger and I'm not. Just this time last year, I would run from the hugs. She used to like to just be held while watching tv in a non sexual way. My next change would be not to hold grudges against her. I would tell her that I will express my anger but I won't hold the grudges. She say I talk down at her, not to her. I'll have to study on how to communicate in a way that would make her comfortable.
I will show her I want to be around her by just that. This summer, she took the kids to the fair. I knew we didn't have the money so she must be spending the tax rebate money that we agreed would be spent on the kid's need. As I knew she was doing this, I didn't go just to cut down on costs. She said she thought I just didn't want to go with her.This will sound dumb, but I would just hold her hand. I would be the strong gentle dude I used to be. Actually listening to her. That is to share her joys and help her with her sorrow. I clocked out in this field over the last year.
I would show the passion I used to show. We used to work at the same company. Everyday, she would clear her desk so I could sit with her and eat lunch. I would find reasons to go into her department until I wangeled a transfer. During those lunch visits to the cubicle, I showed a little naught behavior that I've cooled off on. We don't work together anymore but I would find places to do that naughty stuff.
I don't like doing this in front of the kids. Mommy likes to make it known that I'm excited whether in public or otherwise. That is she will make things happen as a tease. Come to think of it, before I went south, her just coming in with that Bath & Bodyworks apple lotion was all it took. There's a lot of that upstairs as if it were stockpiled from last year. She was trying to recapture that and I didn't notice.... Well now that I'm online that won't be an issue.
Act excited. I agree. At times, I acted as if it were a chore. You don't know what ya got until it's gone. Our schedule at one point was nearly every day in one form or another. Sneak stuff. We don't have a stair case or cubicle to try to make out but maybe I could take her for a ride to the runway at the airport. Act as if we were....
The shower thing just didn't work the last time we tried it but I get your point. I noticed she washer her red frilly thing I like her in. She did throw away the red high heel platforms. Or at least they aren't where they used to be. That may have reminded her of her "failure" to draw me in. I can kiss as good as anyone but I slacked on that too.
I don't know how to put into words that me from just 5 years ago is back and wants to make up for his absense. Again, I'll have to think on that one too.
All this talk. Patience. One of the kids told me she thought mommy was trying to torture me. She's doing a good job.
