Sad To Be Back 4 Years After The Bust

[Gardener]

Very bad day today. I have lost all my confidence and belief that there is any possibility of saving my marriage.

We've all been there.

I forgot every db basic. I cried in front of my wife, showed my neediness and dispair. I was weak, unattractive, and desparate.

Been there, too and not only duringpost-bomb meltdown. We all backslide; this is emotional hell.

You got smacked from all sides today, man. Go someplace, lick your wounds and come back and act out your life as if your marriage is truly over. It may very well be, based on things W & D said.

I will tell you, though, this certainly stood out:

There is a danger in dbing - thinking that you really can change things.

If you've been trying to change your sitch you know you're setting yourself up to fall and fail. Change YOU. You have to. Besides, D18 is watching you. Watching to see what you do.

I need to make me better.

Yes you do. It's all you can do right now.
And do it you can.
You must.
Prayers for you on an awful day.