Woke up and the fogginess of my night out started to wear off. I had a great and super fun time being out with family and friends last night. And I am a very fun, laughing, flirty, ready to party type of drinker, which is always a good thing! When I got dropped off back at home last night is when my downward spiral started to occur.
Coming home to this soul-less house with no H, no kids, and no animals, just me all by myself is when the come-down, the low, and the emptiness just became all-consuming for a little while. Plus, for the past few weekends I have been gone and spending the weekends with other people, so this was the first time I had been home on a weekend like this for a while. Add in the mix of crazy, confusing events from H earlier in the day and voila, the recipe for my meltdown was created.
I'm proud that I didn't do anything stupid and make any calls or send any texts. That was one of the hardest things for me to put a stop to in my early DBing because that used to be par for the course for me when I drink too much. Either to call and/or text and let H know I'm having a great time, woo-hoo, etc. or to rip into him and then cry asking him why.
Got another cute picture message from H of H's bro's kitten, (I know, I know, AGAIN) earlier this afternoon with text part that just said "omg." I never texted back yesterday and ain't gonna either today. I don't know what his deal is. This is the only possible thing that he has right now to be connected to me by is all I can think...? Really has nothing else and no other reason to text or call me for so just keeps using these pics...?
Me-34 XH-33 No Kids We were M-12Y T-15Y 5/09 Same house-separate bedrooms 01/10 I filed for D / H moved out 09/16/10 Divorced
