Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

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I'm sure I broke just about every DB rule in the book today. W & I were talking about having 'the talk' with our S. It turned into R talk and I asked how she was explaining our sitch to her friends & family. She said she's not giving them any details...just saying we had some problems, tried to work things out, & we're gonna seperate for a while.

I told her I'm having trouble telling my friends & family...How do you tell people that your W is leaving you & you'll only get to see your S 1/2 the time. Then I brought up her A...she again tried to say it was only an EA. I said that's nonsense. You don't buy condoms & go on a romantic date to a fancy restaurant if it's only emotional. Then I told her how many people are affected by this. My family loves her to death & now they're all heartbroken. I know, playing the guilt card big time...just like I'm NOT supposed to. But I was fired up. Then I said I hope her A was worth it & left the room.

It's so hard to hold back the anger when I think of her A & all the stuff she's done to me since the bomb. I know I'm supposed to act cool & collected but I'm downright pissed when I think about it...and I let some of those emotions out today.

Now that I got all that out of my system, I better start playing nice again...before she lawyers up & takes me to the cleaners financially.