Hoping WAW will someday see through the fog....

[shellshockedga]

IWITW, thanks for the link. I remembred reading that, but it was a darn good refresher.

Went to Church today with the kids and W. Just like old times except the immense tension between us. It's interesting that everytime our Pastor speaks, I believe it is a message to us. Today was on giving, and I was still able to relate, word for word what he said to our M. Strange....

Anyway, trip out west this week and then to the midwest. Yes, I will be all over the US over 4 days. Life of a sales person ain't that glamerous. But great opportunities to stop and reflect on things and to catch my breath. Thursday starts my week with the boys. Can't wait for that. On a positive note, it is good that W and I survived the weekend without any major fallout. It wasn't perfect, but it could have been much worse. Keeping busy and realizing that I need to focus on me and the kids, rather than her, has helped. I also became aware that W had finally worked things out with my SIL. Not that it has anything to do with me or saving my M, but I had encouraged her to remember that nothing was more important than family and that she needed to resolve her issues. I am happy that she has. That will make a huge difference for my boys being able to spend time with their cousins. What I find somewhat curious is that she told me the two of them had been able to just agree that the past was the past. Now, why can't she do that with us? Rhetorical question.


What will this week bring? Who knows. One day at a time.... One hour at a time.

I need a new hobby. hummm....... This is something to work on this week. What would I be interested in doing that I have never done before?

Sandi, your note BTW, hit home. It is tough when you are making these changes for yourself for the WAW to see that. I guess that they are so self consumed that they fail to realize that the LBS could really be changing for him (her) self. That change is not only possible, but can be a reality. I will say this, the last 4 months have changed my life in ways I NEVER thought possible. It has given me newfound hope about my future as a person, and has increased my own self confidence. It has been painful, and I sure wish there had been another way, but here I am the newly emerging me. There are some really tough things that are going to happen soon with the W and me. I will remember to keep to the high road and do what is best overall for the boys, then me.

Regardless of what happens, I will remember (even when it may be really, really, really hard,) that there is a plan, that I am not in control of that plan, but something great is waiting somewhere out there for me. My hope - probably the hope of most of us here is that it is a M 2.0 with W 1.0, but if that doesn't happen, someone else sure is going to grab a good person with me.

For some reason, Sundays ALWAYS make me happy now :-)