Thanks Honey. I just logged on during my break. I'm in a room full of people and I feel lonely. Before 8-15-03 I would call my babe or better yet, she would feel the need to call.
I know I have a lot of work to do. I think yesterday was a turning point although it was rough. I have heard not to be a doormat. My mothere while keeping out of this has said the same thing. But I don't want to come back out as the war lord I was.
I just need to plan my next move a little better. We clashed a little this morning but I refused to fight. I do understand the cumlative effect. It was my feeling that she was extremely confused. Old Blackrook has never exposed all of his soul to his W. Quoting Jerry Maguire and actually knowing what you complete means shook her a bit I think. In a way, I felt a wave of happy come after I told her she was my life, then it was replaced with anger. I think she's thinking why didn't you tell me this a long time ago.
Well I need to get my mind back on mission. The guilt is still here but I'll have to deal with it. Wait!!! She just sent me an email. Let me read it and see what it is. Maybe it's more jokes like she sent last week. Then again, maybe it's a slam.
