Not much happening lately, which is odd after all of the events this summer/fall with my dad and S's friend passing. Now things are quiet. Especially with H... no contact, nothing to talk about. I had offered to split the filing fee and we could file jointly. No response abt that either, and I'm going to leave it alone for awhile.
I've been dreaming abt H lately but it's not in a romantic way. Almost like we have unfinished biz. Maybe that's related to the filing... Still can't quite believe he's gone, living with another woman and hasn't had the kahunas to tell me that. Just moves on and doesn't seem to have any motivation to file and finish things with me. But I could file if I wanted. Have felt lately like I just shouldn't have to do it. He wants this. He can finish it.
As far as GAL and my PMA, I think I'm doing pretty well. Busy with the kiddos, and taking care of my mom. I haven't been exercising unless bagging leaves counts! ...when I get busy it's the first thing to be neglected. A run would be good for me or maybe a spin class. I'll set that as a mini-goal for the week.
That's about all to report... still in limboland, still taking care of my family and myself. I have given up trying to control anything related to H, and am leaving my future in God's hands. I think the future will be pretty great. Just have to be patient and see what happens!
