War Journal Addendum:
Blackrook is back from his fog of self pity. PMA is coming back up to nominal levels after great DB effort. Feedback from today's effort is coming in. I'm an a$$hole. But that's ok. Little one reports he saw mommy sitting in the garage smoking and crying. When asked what was wrong, she replied that a$$hole. As dumb as this sound, I like that. I've been nothing but nice, not doormat here but I validated the heck out of her issues. I told her I understand and how selfish I was. This obviously had some affect on her. The kid said mommy wants to be mad at you but you won't let her in his opinion. Claims I don't cook. Big Italian based dinner on the books for today. I'll bust her belt today. Take that my love. I'll show you who loves ya.
W complained base boards needed to be scrubbed and walked off. Blackrook dropped to his hands and knees and scrubbed. W perplexed. I didn't bother to tell her that on my list of things to do on my day off later this week. That will be our secret.
Little one reports that at party, mommy claimed an item of mine as hers. Her friend(who I'm not sure is an enemy or not) tells her when you're married it's ours. She then quipped not for long and laughed. Friend didn't appreciate joke and moved on.Little one asked how much did I love mommy. I told him I would take death without hesitation if it would save mommy's life. His response was "that's deep."
More to follow. This will be an interesting day and week. I wonder if W will email me jokes this week because "she knows I could use them". In a way, I feel sorry for her, she's all over the emotional map just as I've been. I guess walking in those shoes helps me understand her. I hated her yesterday and loved her to death the next. I'm on auto pilot and letting God do his thing.
