Thanks for pointing that out do you know I didnt twig he liked my outfit and it was green (for those that havent twigged H hates green) One of my first acts of independance/defiance was to buy a lovely bright green handbag, just looking at it makes me smile and laugh!
Your so right I did get drawn into the hurt bit there for a second, will have to make a plan to cover that one next time although it wasnt the him going, it was more the lack of manners that bugged me and as I pointed that out perhaps it wont happen again as he will talk to me instead fingers crossed. It would be good to have him txt me a bit more, but much better if he started the txting!
I am actually quite interested in his hobbies, but he shuts me out or perhaps doesnt think Im serious, I love the trains they are so stunning, a modern train just cant compete with the romance of one. In fact you have given me an idea on that front, something he wont expect me to want to do is go on the footplate and do you know I would like too! They do alsorts of dinner trains, mystery evenings etc I would love them and have said so but it falls into his "i'll get a round to it" category.
The photography is interesting, especially as I'd love him to take more photos of madam and babycakes, and I'd like to learn more, I do have a little camera of my own but the big posh expensive one is theorectically his.
Staying over at his is a dodgy one for me, something inside me doesnt want to acknowledge his other home, am I wrong, one thought is that it wouldnt be a home our home, but what if it is really homely and without me could I cope with seeing it?
Well he cant want the old model back because she isnt here anymore, bits of her are! Whilst giving him a massage I did say that one bit of the seventeen year old was present the bit that couldnt put him down even though she knew it was going to get her into trouble! and I was so done with getting him to chase me down hills like he used to, he lived at the top of the hill the other side of the village and often when we fell out I'd walse off home in the dark with him chasing me lol! He did say he was a tad too old for that these days!
Checking emails is a bad habit for IT staff, especially when you work a bit from home, obviously if you are out of the office you want to keep on top of things kicking off! Also with the job hunting being on the ball is needed although he did shoot himself in the foot checking late at night but then one of his old bosses was so horrible he expected 24/7 attention and I dont think H has ever quite ditched the paranoia.
Yeah pillow fight was fun and definitely a bit of genius on my part lol, and Im glad I didnt fall flat on my face trying to squeeze an ILY out of him, its a difficult one on the cake eating front, you know how I struggle with it? Mostly because my heart tells me hes not a cake eating sort of guy and every thing he is saying is pointing towards good things so I dont want to muck it up by not going with the flow, although if he comes up to visit during the week TOTM has kicked in so I will get time with him without s*x which will be good. Why is it when you dont want it, it arrives and when you do its no help lol! Usually Im the sorta person if a naughty weekend is booked it arrives every time!
Giving him time to think is a HUGE 180 from me, Im a batter them till they give me answer person or was, so I bet its a HUGE relief to H that I have killed that one off lol!
All positive stuff perhaps TOO so maybe I should expect a pullback I dunno?
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