UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Thanks Cas - pretty much what Sanderika said too. That's reassuring when lots of people agree!! I am increasing my PMA as the day goes along.

It's so hard not to be desperate and intense when you feel that you are losing the battle. Of course, you are right in that I should be light and fun - he's not going to respond to anything other, is he?

My friend just text me and I realised that I missed a trick yesterday. H said "you should turn the spa temp up" and I said "leaving it off for now, too expensive to run whilst I'm on my own" .... what I should have said was "yeah, crank it up, we will need a good soak tomorrow after all this work and you can sit in there with your books and have a study soak"!! Too late now but it's in my memory bank for next time! I can see so many opportunities to 'act as if' the next time I see him. Yes, I have to stay away from the R talk - I think that I can do that next time. One step at a time.

I'm glad that you heard the positives too ... I needed to know that they were there and not that I had just imagined them.

(((Cas)))

Patience is a virtue - will someone please hurry and make me virtuous?!!