UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Tulsa Time - so good of you to drop in. Thank you for your encouragement. It's in the depths of despair that people tend to gather around and I am blessed with all that look out for me here. It's why we must pay it forward when and where we can.

Well, I decided that I was not going to let myself be put down by yesterday evening's events. I sent H a quick text (not pursuing!) to say that I hoped his day was off to a good start with a nice lie in (which he was desperate for) and that his back wasn't as sore as mine is ... that the studying (for his project that we discussed yesterday) was going well.

Back came his response "good lie in - back in half - up to my neck in the studying" .... I left it a while and then replied that the gardens were worth the effort - they look good. Said that I was unable to help with the studying but that I could willingly help with his back - and an emoticon with a wicked grin to follow! Nothing returned but he is up to his ears in studying!

We were debating yesterday on what day we had arrived back from the UK. I just found my last years diary and flicked him an email, not to disturb him again by text. He doesn't pick his emails up daily now, so it's likely to be Wednesday before he gets it in any case. Just let him know the dates that we were away and closed by affirming his almost-suggestion for the breakfast/coffee invite again "Have a good week at work and perhaps we will catch up soon - maybe fourth time lucky on the breakfast/coffee invite? " ... and so it is now left. Firmly in his court. If he doesn't initiate any contact, then I shall not either. Something tells me that he will ... though not for quite a few days.

I'm ready. He's already laid the plans out for doing the sheep sh*te run again ... probably another two days worth of work there and then there's heaps of excuses to visit, if he's truly looking for some. He didn't look at the pool and spa yesterday and, as regular viewers will know, they are his favourites to get sorted! I just have to get a trailer load of this Patience stuff ... I think that it lives next door to PMA .... anybody got an excess that they can sell to me??