Yesterday and today weren't too good for Blackrook. W left house in some type of tizzy. I don't know why. Little to no communication during day. Left work early to do things. W calls and gets mad at miscommunication. Calls back in better tone and then tells how bad her day was and she was called into second job. After first call I was mad at her. After second call..well. W called again later to ask me to pick up brew for a party she will attend tonight. I cave and do it. Went for my manicure and had a nice talk with my former assistant. Told her what was up. Of course, she had advice. But she's only 21. She invited me to hang out with her girly girl friend tonight for a couple drinks. I think i will and then meet other friend for more stuff to do to pass the time. My former assistant is hot as heck. But I would rather have my W out with me doing things. I miss her Had sexual offer from girly girl last night. Of course I turned it down. While this woman(not the assistant) is also very hot I would rather kiss my W's butt(which she likes) than this womans lips. Blackrook just wants his W
W left for the day with the kids for a friend of her's cookout. As she will be drinking, she will stay the night with the kids. Trying to tell myself I don't care. But.... Blackrook is lonely. I'm trying like heck to fix this thing, but.... Maybe if I go out and get a life tonight, I will forget how lonely I am and how much I miss and love my W. Today, she paraded around with just a sweat shirt on. Caught me staring, I wonder if I should have gotten up and tried something What does she want from me. At least today, her and her friend refered to me as her husband and not the roommate. I guess I should take solace where I can get it. Blacrooks mood is as dreary as Indy weather today.
Maybe tonight will lift my spirits. It's a long time until the evening. Too much time with my thoughts. Well there won't be any tears in my beer.
Yesterday I went from nearly hating my W to loving her. Is she going through the same emotion sets?????
More to follow....
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Had sexual offer from girly girl last night. Of course I turned it down. While this woman(not the assistant) is also very hot I would rather kiss my W's butt(which she likes) than this womans lips. Blackrook just wants his W 
What does she want from me. At least today, her and her friend refered to me as her husband and not the roommate. I guess I should take solace where I can get it. Blacrooks mood is as dreary as Indy weather today.
