Question

[awest1217]

I went to my class reunion with just S. It was ok. I didn't really get to talk to anyone and honestly the people who were there I never talked to in high school anyway. The two friends who did come, did not get there until later so I didn't get to talk to them as much as I would like. Also I felt weird talking to people because I had S and H was not there. No one knows anything or even knows we got married, but I think I was just self conscience. I am still glad I went. S had fun. Told step sister that H left, but not to tell anyone.

I am still really, really angry. I don't know why. Tonight while praying I felt like I am angry because that is what is keeping me going. Without the anger, I would feel all of the hurt, and would probably fall apart. However, the anger is not good. I am snapping at S, which then makes me mad at me because he has done nothing wrong. Facebooked a mentor who has been through something similar so looking for some good advice there.