One of the hardest things about DBing is that even though we are not supposed to have any expectations, it is SO HARD not to. Even though we don't expect anything in a particular moment, it is very difficult not to let our hopes of reconciliation have a timeline of some kind.
I have had M problems for almost 7 years and if you asked me if I could endure it this long, there is no way in Hel! that I would have thought that possible. But I am able to suffocate the bad feelings a good portion of the time, concern myself only with the kids most of the time, and get through the rest of the time based on my faith in myself and God.
You have made great strides over the last 6 months, don't backslide now. So many WAS think that the grass is greener because they haven't actually crossed over the fence yet. Once they do, the picture up close won't look as romantic as it did from so far away.
You love your W, you just don't like her right now. That is ok. Just remind yourself in times like these that she is the mother of your children and that you married her because you WANTED TO SPEND YOUR LIFE WITH HER. Try not to let that fact get under your skin as much as just allowing it to put everything back into perspective.
What I wouldn't give right now for my H to be so concerned about rebuilding our M!
BIM M 39 / H 40 / S 9 / S 6 / T 20 / M 11
my sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1828127#Post1828127
