Hi Nell, so sorry to hear that the visit had not been as you had hoped. I don't know how much I can contribute being such a newbie myself, but to me... it sounds a bit encouraging that his heart is not done. My H has been telling me since the bomb that he is "emotionally dead" and he doesn't know if his heart is in this... so devestating. I think if he told me his heart wasn't done, but his head was I would feel like "good... we can work on your head but the heart is harder to change". Just my 2 cents....Hope you are doing ok. Have been known to find solace at the bottom of a wine bottle myself in the past few months. Finally realized that was not helping and have seemed to better with detaching since I stopped all that. Thinking of you...