I don't know how she would react to that. I just went into a slump. I went home for lunch and found a bill for her lawyer in the mailbox. I know it's not over until the ink is dry. Then, she calls me to tell me one of the kids got in trouble at school. Then she tells me that she doesn't want me to handle this. She said she needs to get used to handling these things by herself. I told her how the kid started to hide in his closet when he was upset. Well he did it once. She was mad because I didn't tell her. The boy asked me not to tell her. I think I told her because I wasn angry and wanted to "show her what divorce will do." I think I put myself back 10 spaces.
It was great that she called me. I'll let things cool down and start over again. She's told me that she's closed off her heart and doesn't feel anything. She said I have made her not feel like a woman. I don't think today will help my situation.
But I will keep on chugging. More updates to follow. I'm making a lot of changes in my life. Going to church, listening to her talk about her day and such. On Sunday, she asked me if I was going to church. I know she is curious and she sees my changes. But I did a back slide. I opened my mouth. By not telling her of this thing, I showed I couldn't be trusted.
I want to knock myself out. I just told a friend to watch what he says and I did it myself.
