Not in my nature

[pitinmygut]

Yesterday was a rough day. I have been doing really good lately just taking things one day at a time and not even doing any R talk. I had to meet my W on my way home from work to pick up my son. It was my birthday.....my W didn't even acknowledge it. I guess my expectations were too high. It really hit me hard. I drove all the way home fuming thinking about it. When I got home I called her cell and left a voicemail to let her know how disappointed I was....maybe I shouldn't have done that, but I really felt like I needed to.

Her mother called to wish me a happy birthday (my W is staying with her parents for now), which was very nice of her. My W got there shortly afterwards and her mom must have told her that she just called me. So my W called (before she listened to the vm I left) to wish me a happy birthday and she laughed it off like it was no big deal. I said you must not have listened to the vm yet and I told her it wasn't a pleasant vm. I told her that I guess my expectations were too high and we say good bye.

It was a had day - a day that really solidified the fact that I am not that important to her anymore. So, I will continue to o things for myself and my son.