So, post day 1 of the "talk." Slept ok last night. Tough, very tough, being around the kids since I know the storm that's brewing.
Last night, W went to bed before S and I. S and I were watching a football game - really, it was just an excuse for me to spend some time with S away from W. After W says "sleep good" and closes her door in front of S and I, I cringed a bit, but just acted like nothing was wrong. Later, just before I sent S to bed, he asked me "Why did mom move to the guest room?" I was caught off guard and replied with "I don't know." Then moved the conversation in an other direction.
I don't know if I handled this the right way, but it was the best I could do at the time.
As far as speaking to W yesterday, I might have said/written 10 words to her all day. I don't hate her, but my disappointment in her is so strong that I don't want to have anything to do with her right now. Maybe it's the freshness of the "talk." Maybe it's the realization that nothing has changed in 6 months. Maybe it's that she shows no emotion when talking about moving on. Whatever it is, it is very difficult to shake my "unattraction" for her.
Part of the plan post "talk" was for me to pull way back from her. I am not rude to her, but I am not pleasant to her either.
Wedding band is still off and I have no plans to put it back on. I'm not doing this out of spite. It is just a constant reminder that we do not have a MR.
We have a "family" thing at the zoo. At times, I feel like such a hypocrite to the outside world when we do "family" things. If they only knew.
